Adjustments

So last night I stayed up too late and caught a sore throat. Does that mean I deserve to be bedridden today? And what's more, feel horribly about myself? This is unacceptable and it's clearly medication/depression-driven.

In the meantime, my psychiatrist is still on vacation and his possible replacement won't have an appointment for me for almost another month. So I have to work out on my own what I'm going to do here.

I started the year saying yes to things, but this strategy clearly has to be attenuated to realistically reflect my resources. What's happened is I've said yes to everything indiscriminately while at the same time my mood is contracting at a rate alarmingly similar to that of the economy. So I have to cull some of the stuff I said yes to and set up tiers of priorities for my fluctuating energy level.

First the list of current projects and commitments:

- knit Thomás' blanket
- Skype with Max and Karina
- learn Flash and Actionscript 3
- read Catfish and Mandala by March 15
- cull and organize fabric pile
- finish plaid shirt
- plan Cambodia trip with Andy
- make clothes for Cambodia trip
- fix moped
- do taxes with Matt
- file for divorce
- pay off debt
- meet/date guys
- clean/organize kitchen
- stop getting sick!!!! Get a hat!
- sort out medication
- establish an exercise regime
- establish a monthly budget
- start saving

There's more, but these are the bulk of the stuff that circles my consciousness on a regular basis so it's what I have to sort through to free up mental space.